Tuesday, August 19, 2014

When Feelings Are NOT Mutual...

Good morning/afternoon/evening to you all!  I pray this blog post encourages and inspires you!

Sometime ago, I had a very interesting thought.  In fact, it was so interesting, I literally stopped what I was doing at that particular moment.  I knew without a doubt that God was downloading another subject for me to blog on.  This subject was (and is) so heavy, not only did it convict ME, but it took a couple of months for me to publish this.

What came to mind actually was a simple, yet thought-provoking two-part question:
Part one: How does it truly feel when feelings aren't mutual?
Part two: How does God feel when He is not loved in return?

PART ONE:  Have you ever thought about it, or experienced that?  To be dreadfully honest, it is an awful feeling.  It is not a good feeling to thoroughly, deeply love someone and they hardly ever or never acknowledge your existence.

Ladies! In the famous words of Mrs. Sophia Petrillo (The Golden Girls), "PICTURE IT!"
You really like this one particular guy. You constantly wonder how he's doing and attempt to find out by sending him a lovely text (which he ignores or responds with extreme detachment).  Your feelings surpass infatuation and physical attraction. You may ask yourself, "Could I be in love?"  With each passing day, your feelings grow into a thriving garden of admiration and adoration.   He practically embodies all of those cute qualities you're looking for in a mate.  He's borderline PERFECT!  In the lovely world of social media, you see a notification from him on your Facebook/Twitter/Instagram and your heart does flips!  You practically melt at his smile.  He resides in the hidden reservoirs of your heart, mind and soul.  He stays on your mind so tough to the point you lose focus on things you're SUPPOSED to be doing.  Imagine feeling like that, and it's not reciprocated.  AT ALL.

PART TWO:  Now, lets flip the roles.  GOD is you (the one overly in love), and YOU are the guy of interest.  Imagine how God would feel in the above situation.

Can you imagine how God feels when we ONLY run to Him with "I need...I want...Can I? May I? Please God, gimmie-gimmie-gimmie," instead of "Lord, I love You, I adore You, I worship You, I'll serve you for the rest of my days..."  Imagine how God feels when the ONLY time we run to Him is when we are in trouble. Imagine how God feels when we ignore Him when our days are "peachy," and then blame Him when He's not marching to the beat of our drum.  Imagine how God feels when we don't trust Him.  Personally, I would feel terrible if the person I truly love didn't trust me. Imagine how He feels when He wants some one-on-one time with us; instead, we push Him away by engaging in activities of no significance.  He wakes you up around 3:00 a.m. so He can commune with you; instead, you post on Facebook/Twitter about not being able to sleep (GUILTY of that one!)

God loves us with an everlasting love, so much so that He gave His only Son that us filthy wretches can live.  Here's a question to parents: can you imagine sacrificing your only child for a wicked world like THIS?! Allow that question to marinate for a moment, then proceed to the next paragraph.

 The Lord hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3

God loves us so much and draws us daily in various ways. It first begins with His morning touch.  He wakes us up-not the alarm clock, not the television or screaming baby-but God.  That alone indicates that we have another opportunity to serve God, and fulfill His perfect will for our lives.  It's a display of His amazing grace.  It gives us another opportunity to start over and do things right and placing them in proper perspective.

The Lord hath been mindful of us: he will bless us; he will bless the house of Israel; he will bless the house of Aaron.  Psalm 115:12
What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? Psalm 8:4

Imagine how God feels when we don't pay Him ANY kind of attention through prayer, scripture reading/meditation...yet He is still mindful of us.  We only run to Him when we need something, and oftentimes, it'll be something we don't need.  Just imagine how you feel when a person comes to you ONLY when they want something.  Imagine being married to a person who ONLY comes to you when they need/want something.  Although I am not a gambling person, I would bet that you'll feel drained and used, like you're only good for supplying a want/need, and nothing more.

Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you. John 15:16

You were chosen and ordained by God for such a time as this to fulfill His perfect will for your life.  He didn't have to do it, but He did.  God loves us and has an awesome plan for our lives (Jeremiah 29:11).  Let us apply what I like to call, the "Matthew 6:33 Factor":  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Let us be intentional with our time with God. How about this:  Let's MAKE TIME for God. Let us set aside uninterrupted time and go boldly before the throne of grace with a pure motive and humility.  Cast down your sundry list of  Gimmie This and That and pursue the One who loves you, the One who knows the number of hairs on your head, the One who bottles up your tears, the One who will never leave or forsake you.  Love on Him; worship Him in the beauty of holiness.  Steal away some quiet time with One who desires to commune with you daily and not just on Sunday.  He's worthy of this, that AND some.  Just like how married couples intentionally block out a day(s) or time period for uninterrupted quality time in an attempt to keep their marriage hot and fresh, treat your relationship with God the Father, through His Son, likewise.

Repent for your selfish motives and thoughts, and learn how to be intentional with Jesus.  Start fresh; NOW is the acceptable time to rejuvenate and refresh your relationship with Jesus.

The Writer's Prayer:  Father God, in the mighty name of Jesus, I thank You.  Thank You for allowing me to pen what You placed on my heart to share.  I do realize that this message is to the writer (ME) first, then to the reader.  I repent for not being intentional in my devotion.  I repent for coming to You with selfish, vain prayers.  Help me to love You and love on You to the point our feelings will become mutual and perfectly aligned.  I love You, Lord.  I am so grateful for Your unfailing love and amazing grace.  You didn't have to save a wretch like me, but because You love me, You did.  Thank You for forgiving me.  Thank You for a refreshing in our relationship.  To You, I surrender my all...in Jesus' name, I pray.  Amen.